Looking to the new year, I know that change is in the wind. I feel it in every pore. There is an impulse to design a road map to guide my journey ahead. However, deep down there is also a knowing that there are bigger plans playing out. I am embarking on an adventure that has not been predetermined by my earthbound self. I just need to surrender and go with what feels right in the moment. It is time to trust in my own capacity to succeed and in the universe to provide opportunities for healing and growth.
I randomly opened a copy of the Osho Zen Tarot book today. The card of Adventure leapt out at me. This card epitomises much of what I am feeling right now. I really have no idea what I am venturing into in the next year or two. However, I am trusting the push to venture forth into a new job and work environment.
I am reading and honing my theoretical knowledge on human dynamics for the new job I will be starting in the new year. There is a strong awareness that much of this new role will be about being in the moment and utilising all of the skills I have developed over the years to facilitate positive outcomes in a nurturing way.
Following The Feeling
Just as the child in the Adventure card fearlessly follows the rainbow into the unknown, I am being called upon to courageously trust in bringing the shadows into the light, step by step.
My core role will be dependent upon my schedules, risk registers and programmes. However, for a large part of my new adventure these tools will be of little use. There will be times when dynamics will be entirely out of my control. I will need to mindfully ride the rapids of the moment. My ability to listen and feel will be my compass, and maintaining an awareness of what I contribute to the moment will be crucial.
Vulnerability Brings Opportunity
I currently feel a mixture of vulnerability and confidence. There is nervousness and insecurity. And yet, there is an inner awareness and strength. Over the past few years I have learnt I am far more capable than what I ever thought I was.
I don’t fear the insecurity I am feeling. Today I read somewhere something about insecurity leading to growth. When you lean into that insecurity, in that moment you are aware of what you don’t know. With that vulnerability you are open to learn new ways and skills.
There is no need to control. To control would be a mechanism for perceived self-protection. When you try to swim upstream against the current, you fight and expend unnecessary energy. When you surrender and go with the flow mindfully, you become aware of opportunities to utilise the skills and talents.
There is an inner awareness this new experience is leading me to something hugely important. I don’t mean that from an external perspective. It is more an understanding the experience will lend to significant personal spiritual growth.
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